Monthly Archives: April 2012

Mentality: The Fidelity of our brain

Am I talking about electric devices today? No, I am not. But I do want to share with the readers the other definition of fidelity which is the quality of being faithful. Now what does that have to do with the title of this post. I’m getting there, but for the sake of a little adventure in this long and treacherous words, let me tell you a few off the tracks story. Or maybe it  wasn’t. Whatever, just keep on reading. If you dare that is.

Sitting in front of the monitor screen with only a few hours spent on paying my sleep debt, I came across a peculiar news in an online news which is sorry for me to say quite infested with parasites like most media nowadays. It reads a student of certain federal university in Malaysia died from quite a fall due to depression problems or whatever stated there. Oh no, that’s not all. Here’s where the story get’s even better. The deputy vice chancellor of the institute with a Ph.D. otherwise he would never get the title Dr. Am I right. Okay, enough of those ramblings. This is some of the informations encrypted within the article which I extracted professionally. “Alas poor lass, she died due to those demons within her body which possessed her”. Wait, didn’t they just said just now she died of ‘depression’. What does the netherworld have to do with this? Now we’re close to digging out those sausages. If you wondered what I meant just now it’s just that I don’t quite have the taste for nuggets, that’s all.

It’s not that I don’t believe in the existence of demons and all. As one faithful to the revelations of the last prophet, I had to accept their existence. Not blind folded but through research and logical thinking. Now here’s the problem. ‘Meleis’,(may the lord forgive me for using cultural ‘memes’  in my grammar) always (or should I say most of the times whichever suits the situation I guess) believed in these weird superstitions without ever looking at the big pictures. This leads to an event where even a great doctor or ‘doc’ for short,  metathesized into ‘dork’. When people died (especially ‘Meleis’) here in this country the first thing that they ask is “did anybody noticed anything different about the deceased before he left the building?”. Preposterous I’d say. Death comes neither too fast or too slow, no one can meddle with it.

Now back to the topic. Do you think that our mind is being faithful to us or that it’s just fiddling with us? When I entered my current apartment almost one year ago, my seniors being kind and all always reminded us to take care as the place is haunted or so. The next day, awakened by the sound of the megaphones (don’t ask why) I found my ex house mate listening to the holy verse recital on youtube. Trembled, he told me that last night a certain phantom chases him in the house. Now I know for sure the place is haunted, or isn’t it just something in our mind. I stayed alone in the apartment for countless weekends, not to mention long holidays within empty compounds of the hostel area. I discovered something alright. Nothing. It’s only been our imagination. You see, I believed that demons are like viruses which infects our mind. When we felt weak at heart or when we ever doubt ourselves they entered our bloodstreams and that’s when they make us hallucinate without the help of weeds nor cracks. Sure, student’s life was really stressful but don’t immediately seeks the witch doctor or the ustadz before you even pray to the lord first (I mean it). I repeat, It’s all in your head. Your minds betrayed you. So seek the neurologist or psychiatrist first before consulting the religious scholar for god sake. Sometimes it’s just a physiological or psychological problems. Our minds betrayed us, most of the times. No, I should say every time.

Don’t let our fears and discontent haunt us for life. I’m not selling any Mcspirituality here. The words here are well encrypted and can only be understood through logical thinkings and researches. Don’t just read the top and the bottom and deduce a stupid conclusion. Let your mind “grow a spine” (actually they’re linked). Now get back to your life and think about it. Simple right? Chances are they’re just something in your head. Get it? Oh, I give up………….

Uverworld~7th Trigger

Yo guys, have you heard the latest single from Uverworld the “7th Trigger” if you haven’t you should listen to it. Pretty awesome I guess, never a dull song from Uverworld their always giving their best in every song. There’s 3 new song but I just post 7th trigger lyric and translation here. So, here you go. Enjoy!!

UVERworld – 7th Trigger
Lyrics: TAKUYA∞
Composition: TAKUYA∞


Ah shirajirashii kono machi mo hito mo najinde iku jibun ni mo iratsuite ita
Kawa no nagare kara me wo sorashita onaji you ni nagasarete kita wake ja nai

Tatta isshun datta to shite mo oh… kamawanai
ANCHI Destiny hanate shining orera no dream
Koko ni aru subete noyume risoukyou ga oh… kanawanai sonna koto wakatteru
Ketsudan no hikigane de ikiteru ka ikasareteru no ka
Wakaranai you na ikikata wo uchinukou

Donna ni tabetatte futoranai boku wo mite
Kimi wa itta “kitto kono yo wa fubyoudou na mono ne”
Ue wo muite aruita kurai ja nanimo kawaranakatta
Me wo mukerubeki wa onore no naimen
Kyousou shakai de ki ni natteru yoko yoko ja nee zo

if… wa nai ANCHI Destiny naite owatte iku tsumori wa nee
Calling orera no SUTEEJI oh… Glory nai nara ore ga ninatte
Ketsudan no hikigane de iradachi mo kibou mo fukouhei mo kakugo mo juukou ni kome uchinukou

Time is now

Tokei wo hantai ni muke hashirinuke modoranai Time is now
give up ja owarenee no RISUKU no bouken
Don’t be shy Break Wonder World
Erabareshi sei no deban wa give up ja owarenee

this moment of eternity oh…like it kono kachikan de shika nai ga… sekai wa suteki daro
this moment of eternity oh… kono basho de egaita mirai te ni shitai
Tatoeba sore ga isshun datta to shite mo kamawanai
Mou kakugo wa dekiteru kakageta risou to shinjuu shichaeru kurai no
Kono kachikan dake mo oh… like it
Utagau yoji mo nai hodo yarikireteru sou ieru hodo

Kimeta nara ike yo

Omae datte koko de owatte tamaru ka sou omotte iru ndarou
Jibun de erabe yo zenbu erabe yo tsukinukeru kakugo mo yabureteku kakugo mo
Eikou no hikigane jibun de tsukande uchinukou

Tokei wo hantai ni muke hashirinuke modoranai Time is now
give up ja owarenee no RISUKU no bouken
Don’t be shy Break Wonder World
Erabareshi sei no deban wa give up ja owarenee

It’s time now



Ah, it’s shameless as much as these towns and people
I’m ashamed at even myself for continuing to fit in
My eyes turn away from the stream of the river
It’s not like I’ll shed tears to be the same as them

But even if it’s just merely a moment
OH… it won’t change
ANTI…Destiny, Fire! Shining our dream!
Our Utopia has finally arrived
OH… I understand such won’t come true
What exists at the trigger of determination?
Are you making the best of your life?
Shout out how to live like it won’t be known

Yet how much I eat, I still won’t become fat
You said, “Surely this world is unfair, am I correct?”
If I could at least walk to the summit, then will something change?
But when I should point to your insides
At a public contest, I won’t become determined side-to-side

IF… I won’t, ANTI… Destiny
I will not stop to cry at your feet
CALLING your stage, OH…Glory
If not, then I will bear it out all on my own
Shout out irritation, hope, injustice, and resolution at the trigger of determination in the muzzle

Time is now

In opposition, run at the clock, as fast as you can, and don’t turn back
Time is now
Give up, never-ending adventures of risks
Don’t be shy Break Wonder World
It’s my turn to choose what’s next,
give up never-ending

This moment of eternity OH… like it
Not only these values… isn’t this world superb?
This moment of eternity OH… I want to at the drawn future’s arms
For example, there this mere moment would never matter
With this resolution I’m able to publish my dream and my mind all on my own
Only as mush as these values OH… like it
Not as much as the doubted seasons that I would sever to the limit

If gonna decide, then go!!

OH… even if it’s you, will you end up here?
So then I will entrust it to you
I’ll choose myself, I’ll choose it all
As much as the resolution who is piercing and destroying it all
I’ll try shooting out at the trigger of glory myself this time

In opposition, run at the clock, as fast as you can, and don’t turn back
Time is now
Give up, never-ending adventures of risks
Don’t be shy Break Wonder World
It’s my turn to choose what’s next,
give up never-ending

It’s time now

Game On: How I lived these days (Random Stuff)

Yokoso!! To release some pre-exam stress before my Finals this Tuesday I’d decide to post some simple but boring post out here. Wait a sec, didn’t that sound like the girl who posted a picture about herself than put a caption “I looked bad in this picture”. “Yay, now everyone will say nice things to me”. Nope, I’m not that kinda guy. Or maybe I do…..never mind that, now lets look at this…..”things”….no, that’s not right…..

Cool Things I Do These Days, or whatever it is…..(just mumbling) 

1. Mass Effect 3

Well, who doesn’t like this game,  I spent hours playing it and the second playthrough makes it better. From customising the great commander shepard, added with RPG storytelling components plus some bad-ass enemies (is it? tell me if you disagree with me). The romance system was kinda awkward in some way….yeah, the lesbian+gay inter-species kinda love just doesn’t mix I guess….for me love should be Innocent and….well, maybe my point of view is kinda…ancient but still….that’s better than sex-crazed love people do these days…right (already off-topic here)

2. Tokumei Sentai Go-Buster

The first time I watched it during the premiere I kinda like, “It’s morphing time?? That’s like…..Power Rangers Rip-off”. But wait, it get’s better. The Rangers and enemies both have mecha called Megazord (Rings anything guys?). There’s time countdown shown on the screen on how much time left till the enemy Megazord alive…..yeah, the monster doesn’t blow up and grew humongous like the past series any more. Even the morphing sequence are fast, Kamen Rider Style (even the red ranger have a bike)…..they’re even got hit by bullets when they transform. I love the realism but die hard fans of sentai may disagree with me. Still…It would be great if the zord’s fighting scenes look more realistic. I gave it 4/5 Rangers…..Sweet!!

3. Gundam AGE new season

Even though the new series aims mature audiences the character graphic still can’t convince me to add it into the previous list. Yeah, they look…….short…..and….small for an adult. The 40-50 years old characters looks like teenage size to me. Enough said….

4. DoTA

Wait is this a review or……You should read the title carefully next time eh? Yeah, my homies played DoTA 7d/w. It all began when a pro friend of mine asked me to join em’. Still can’t get the hang of it but hey….we start randoming our hero and all….and…well….we start with random heroes now. Ugh….time out….

5. Procrastinating

You heard that right, who in the world would wake up at 3PM and sleep at….7….maybe 8AM? That’s counter productive….but still, can’t accept the reality of it happening to us…….damn it, what a terrible disease this is…

Damn it, I’m seriously fatigued these days. The diet’s same as ever but it felt like I have a severe anemia or something. Need to get a medical checkup, sometimes certain parts of my body felt a lil’ bit like….how to say this….a sharp sensation or tingling in my nerves….something like that…and my head felt dizzy or painful sometimes, especially during early morning, 4-8AM. I can hear sounds -like those soundwaves in sci-fi movies. It really hurts. I can’t sleep if there’s even a slightest noise within the house, the reason why I slept when all my homies passed out……what is this? Some kinda tumor? A sickness? And the Enigma continues…………


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